Been in the house for a most of the past couple weeks because the weather is pretty cold. I got no money and no job and it’s been brutal trying to find a job. My sober group doesn’t really talk to me and even after over 90 days alcohol free I still want to drink again because of fomo at bars. I still smoke thc as it makes staying home feel much better. Just in a huge rut and don’t know what to do. Still trying to get an appointment with a therapist and it’s taking forever so here I am venting my dirty laundry on here with no other options. My apologies for posting personal stuff on this page. Just got nowhere else to go for conversation
During COVID I had structured my day with specific activities. Some hobbies, then some movies, then some book, then some games. A limited number of cigarettes per day. I went on long walks outside as much as possible, and got a couple online friends over Discord. It helped the time pass. It is not a long-term solution, but it is a start.