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Time, and centering my happiness on things besides another person. Like a rediscovery of personal identity.

It’s very true. Manipulating your own motivation when reward is sooo easy to access is a pain in the butt. I always feel like I’m punishing myself when I deny. Then, I tell myself “if you need it today, you’ll need it tomorrow…what’s the healthy equivalent (of thing)?” So I get a little treat. Just not a cookie. :(

I use it for making materials for special education usages. Word processor almost never.

The low-tech appliances in my cheap apartment work pretty great. Just modern enough not to waste a ton of water, but still have knobs and rattle the floors.

The thing about narcissists is they are never as clever or subtle as they think they are. They get away with everything because their behaviors dysregulate decent people and make it easier to manipulate them. And while it’s obvious, in these little pleased gestures and exaggerated emotions, it still hurts to be manipulated and used. We seek closure to these events, they use that motivation to string the victims along. Terrible disorder.