I’m in my mid-30s, my friend is in her mid 40s. This happened a few weeks ago.
Chloe (not her actual name) is a pretty good friend of mine who I’ve known for the last three years.
We met up with a few friends for karaoke and she was pretty much all over me the entire evening and was acting really flirty.
Among other things, she made suggestive comments (things like cracking dirty jokes with me, suggesting I get her name inked on my arm when we were talking about tattoos), embraced and slow danced with me, grinded her ass against my crotch whilst I was singing a song she liked, and kept asking me for kisses on the lips.
We did smooch a few times, but I didn’t think that much of it… until I felt her tongue go down my mouth.
I texted her when I got home and thanked her for the nice evening. She immediately apologized about the kiss, insisted it was a friendly kiss and that she really values me as a friend.
I feel guilty about what happened and the fact that I reciprocated for many reasons, but also I don’t know how to interpret this. It’s not like it was a drunken mistake, she was like that even before her first glass of wine. She had also gone through a rough breakup a few months back and I’m worried how her ex (also a friend of mine) would respond if he found out.
We have met since but neither of us have brought that night up. She doesn’t seem awkward around me, but I just feel a pit in my stomach when I’m around her.
I dunno how to feel about this, nor what her intentions were.
I may be bad at reading people but I’m pretty sure any kiss that turns into tonsil hockey crosses the line between friendly and romantic.
That’s part of the reason I feel bad. Won’t elaborate but yeah.
Some of my friends don’t like her for that reason and think I should keep my distance. And I don’t really see her in a romantic context, I’m actually kinda aromantic.