If I look around me and continue to find everyone else just complaining and arguing than doing something about their problems, then why the fuck should I be the one to do it for them?

I mean yes, I’ve been having scenarios in my mind about how glorious it’d be to assassinate Trump, Musk, Vance and whoever I can get my hands on who are Republican and messing with power.

But then a couple striking things came to my mind. If I did that, throwing everything and everyone away in my life to accomplish a pretty slim chance in achieving such a goal, what are the odds the American people will later vote in someone just as bad if not worse than Trump? Then my valiant effort would’ve been in vain. Would it have been worth it?

Then the other thought is, people are just going to go back to being shitty among themselves and infect that to everyone else near them so it wouldn’t have fucking mattered anyways. I would’ve only made things feel good for the moment and for a little while until the dust all clears and things will be back to “normal” soon enough.

Because then I’d also realize, that for real change to happen, needs to be a grand collaborative effort and we aren’t there yet and probably may not be there ever. Sure, I’ve disposed of one of those targets, but there’s still a deal of corrupt wealthy assholes around. What I’d do isn’t going to incite people to do the same, they’re just going to sink back into their armchairs and give a big sigh of relief that someone else did something they wish they could do.

And at that point, yeah I’d rather care now about shit that don’t matter to people but matters to me because of those few facts.