So I’m having second thoughts and I’m thinking about how we talked a little bit on how I don’t need to apologize to my boyfriend Avery because nothing HE does is MY fault and that he’s just dry and has been acting weird due to mental exhaustion and depression.

I apologized because our convo went like this: “Yeah, I’m alright, I have Alex” (his boyfriend [other partner besides me]) “You have me too” “Yeah, I know”

So I thought he was mad cuz it was over text but he wasn’t, he just said he knew.

Anyway, he can always hang out with Alex and Alex makes him feel better but whenever I ask Avery to hang out, he’s too busy, too depressed, doesn’t feel like it, doesn’t know, is gaming, anything like that.

Whenever I ask if I can help, he says there’s nothing I can do but I feel a bit sad because Alex always seems to be able to be there for him because he sees Alex every day.

So I’m only 15. While I hope my boyfriend is the one for me, I also doubt it. I have had a girlfriend “Amy” since I was 12 but I am polyamorous and so is my boyfriend “Avery”. He is also dating some dude who I’ll call “Alex” since his name starts with the same letter as Avery’s and my girlfriend’s.

He said he’d love to call sometime and I’m sure he loves us equally, but he calls Alex for hours a day, for like 5-12 hours, and barely acknowledges my texts, he just reads them. In fact, he asked me to hang out with him but that was because he was bored that Alex wouldn’t be coming over.

Idk what to do. I feel wrongfully a bit sad and like I’m the bad guy.

They sleep on calls all the time too at night and I’m trying not to care but I’m sad because he spends more time with Alex than me. I wanna sleep over at his house sometime and do all the stuff they do but he can’t because he’s always busy with Alex. Maybe I’d be liked more if I was a boy…

I may be overreacting