Is everything in your life the way you want it to be & you're comfortable & feel no angst?

I manage the things that cause me angst.

But here is the deal. I don’t want to work, but because of a combination of necessity and desire I have to work.

The US oligarchs are not suffering enough.

I’m transgender and live in the UK, so no

My wife of 30 years died a few months ago and I’m having to adjust to life without her.

Life is freakin weird now … I feel like some kind of ghost that doesn’t exist … I feel like a big part of my life died with her and at the same time I feel like I’m alive but not fully … I’m alive but not fully … I feel like part of me disappeared but I didn’t die … quite honestly, sometimes I feel like a ghost that didn’t fully cross over and I’m stuck in this life until I can move on.

I have a ton of supports, family and friends, work and things to do and I keep very busy with stuff … but all of it just doesn’t mean much to me any more.

And family and friends keep telling me I have all the freedom in the world to do whatever I want … but you know what? … life is no longer enjoyable when you don’t have the person you want to share everything with. I had so many plans and things I really, really wanted to do … but now it’s all meaningless and pointless … I have no real enjoyment for many things any more. Even turning on the TV to watch something, anything no longer really thrills me and I watch something for a few minutes, my mind wanders and I have to go do something else. I go online and it’s the same thing, I read part of something and I have to move on to the next thing … I play video games and I can’t concentrate on it for too long.

About the only thing left to me now is riding my motorcycle but I can’t even do that because the weather is still too cold here in northern Ontario … so I can’t even enjoy that.

And in the meantime, I have to watch the world burn … life is just very strange for me at the moment.

its alright, no major problems maybe could be better in some ways but could be a lot worse

Well my life has been in constant turmoil since November. I broke up with my girlfriend of six years, moved out of our shared apartment into a flatshare in a mouldy shithole, got the majority of my friends to hate me from how I acted towards my ex, and now my kidneys have failed and I have been undergoing dialysis for nearly 2 months. This has caused me to be depressed, anxious all the time, and just plain lonely. Every day right now feels like a fight for survival. From high blood pressure giving me intense headaches, to fluid overload causing swelling everywhere and coughing from fluid in my lungs. Things just haven’t been going well for me. I also had to postpone my master’s thesis to next year.

I still need to figure out what to do with that shared apartment, how to survive until the end of summer which is when I’ll hopefully have my transplant, and how to make friends again now that I’m an adult.

Honestly if it wasn’t for my current girlfriend and my parents I don’t think I’d survive this, and I often feel like all this is my fault. It has also only recently hit me that yes, I am struggling, and things have been difficult, even if I never had to worry about things like money or having a roof over my head. I just wish for some rest.

First ignoring everything outside my direct control.

Still no, but I know what I want in my personal life and I see the path to get there. If the world doesn’t fall into chaos first. It’ll just take time, but what better use of my youth? If the past few years have taught me anything, it’s that trying to get there too fast will wreck my mind and body.

I think a lot of it now comes down to having a ‘Platonic ideal’ for myself and not living up to it. Like strictly an internal matter, I’m fine with other people seeing me the way I am. Even if I lived in a secluded bunker, I’d still be bothered that my eating and sleeping habits suck, my time management needs work, my athleticism is lacking, I never finished learning German, and my screen usage is ruining my back and eyes.

Actually, that would be kind of nice. I’d like to think that if I could be minimally- or un-employed but still well-housed and well-fed for a year, I could finally take a breath and go fix everything that’s been nagging at me.

I might be sleeping in my car in six weeks time. What could be wrong

Home life is great. I love my kids and my partner and they’re all amazing.

but I’m currently taken out of this feeling by stress and anxiety about work. To the point that my partner is concerned about my health. it’s really not good.

Sometimes being lonely hits like a truck. But it passes like grief that’s a few years old. Everything else is okayish. Have overcome the major life hurdles. Can’t complain.

I kinda broke into laughter when reading your question, at the absurdity of the idea. So that’s probably a no.

However, I’m doing better than I have been for a while, and am capable of laughter, so it’s not all bad.

It’s not perfect, but I’ve got quite a few of the things I wanted to have when I was imagining the future back then.

I’ve got a partner that I trust and love, I do the job that I wanted to be doing, albeit not the perfect company or the most satisfying position, I’m still in touch with the friends I wanted to keep (and happily not in touch with some of the rest), I’m no longer living with my parents and have two cats that are the perfect little creatures for company.

Some things could be better, many of them completely out of my control. My current goal is to just make my lifestyle healthier, I’m too sleepy all the time because of staying late trying to regain the time lost doing the boring adult things, and I get exhausted and out of breath extremely easily.

Well it WAS until you brought it up! >:(

I’m fairly sure this isn’t something human brains can do